I LOVE YOU

I. LOVE .YOU.
3 simple words and yet when combined gives out a very powerful and life changing meaning. Let me ask you..when was the last time you spoke these words and really meant them? Love can be manifested in so many ways..there are people who are verbal, expresses their love through words and there are some who doesn’t say it often but demonstrate theirs thru service or actions.
There was this one time that I realized I genuinely love this person when he was sleeping. I was staring at him and at the same time my mind was having a flashback on the things we’ve been through..at that moment it came to me that I truly love this person—I admired his strengths and accepted his weaknesses.
Another unforgettable incident I had that made me aware I love somebody was when he was drunk. It is funny coz usually when your BF gets into a fight & is drunk because of you the typical reaction is to be pissed off. But not me..haha..I’m weird. I don’t know but I felt the exact opposite I just didn’t tell him that time. From the bar, Me and Olive rushed him to the nearest hospital coz he had a bad reaction from all the SMB he consumed. He was injected w/different medicines that made him puked all night. While he was in the stage of alcohol intoxication he was mumbling .. I approached him to check if needs anything he grabbed me & told me: cheng, I am sorry, I love you and I don’t wanna lose you….my heart melted.
I classify love as a passionate and deep affection towards somebody and can only be proven thru time. A combination of respect, honesty, selflessness and acceptance of somebody.
The last time I said ILOVEYOU –- i felt empty after. Why? For the reason that I feel it is too untimely to conclude it’s love. The whole thing is still premature. I have this strong feeling for that person but I’m not quite sure if we are on the same page. I see the care, appreciate his efforts but is it love or is it something else? The excitement, the thrill , the happiness ..all the ingredients you can possibly think of that may make it seem love is there. But somehow there is a part of me that is still doubtful..i don’t know maybe I’m just a little flustered with all the thinking ive been doin lately.
So tonight I am making a promise to myself that the next time I will say I LOVE YOU to somebody I will be 100% positive of it. I will be certain that it is not just another infatuation, fondness or foolish extravagant attraction...