In Control....

In Control
I know we all get through a phase in our life where we think that we're lost..hurting.grieving. Losing someone you love is very traumatic especially when you build your hopes with that person. Then you begin to ask urself : >How can something get so messed up if u already gave ur best into it? >How can life be so unfair when all this time u played a fair game? >How come some people just step into ur life in a moment but then change things in it forever? >How come God just didnt hand us a paper & a pen the day we were born so we can list down the course of life we wanted and yet they say that your life is your choice? It just sucks sometimes that we're not in total control of our lives..cause if we were then we'll get everything we wish for. Enjoy the life we planned in having. No curves,no stopovers,no intersections..just a straight line from start to end. All happenings are listed from step 1 to 1oo..no surprises..no unexpected predicaments. Though we may choose to put a number of stumbles on our undertaking but we also designed a way for us to come out of it easily. I can only imagine if we have the power to make things happen..maybe the word "HARD" or "FAILURE" will be non-existent. But you know what, amid my wishful thinking for such power i know that everything that occurs in our life good or bad has a purpose. And with it each experience there are lessons learned and mistakes made that will defy our character..and in the long run will lead to our own improvement as a person. If i were given the freedom to decide between knowing and not knowing what's gonna happen I will still choose the lather. For despite all the uncertainties it also come w/the thrill of anticipation. Believing that there's always a silver lining gives me a reason to face each day with ample strength and a smile in my heart. If today is a bad day then tomorrow will be a good one. Today I am hurt but i know tomorrow I will heal. Not being in control doesnt make us weak..it just makes us stronger and hopeful.